You just thought

You thought you had it all. I thought so but... I gotta go.

I dont know how else to put this
It's taken me so long to do this
I'm falling asleep and i cant see straight
My muscles feel like a malee
My bodys curled in a u shape
I put on my best but im still afraid
Propered up by lies with promises
Saving my place as lifes forgets
Maybe its time i saw the world
I'm only gere for a while
But patiences is not my style
And im so tired i gotta go

What am i suppose to want now
What am i supposew to do
Did you really think i wouldnt see this through
Tell me i should stick around for you
Tell me i could have it all
I'm still tired to care and i gotta go

I get to go home in one week
But I leaving home in three weeks
They throw me a bone just to pick me dry
im following suit and directions
i crawl up inside for protection
im told what to do and i dont know why
im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away

im ready to live with my family
im ready to die in obscurity
cause im so tired that i gotta go

what am i suppuse to want now
what am i suppose to do you still
dont think im going see this through
tell me im a part of history
tell me i can have it all
im still to tired to care and i gotta go


still to tired to care and i gotta go
still to tired to care and i gotta go
still to tired to care and i gotta go (stone soure)


Update: check it on http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZFK4HD7KAjk

The selfish!!

Lately some people forget. One thing I've learned the last few years is that you never forget!! Yourself in the first place but the other one(s) are still second. You're not alone!!!

So...

The selfish theyre all standing in line...
Faith in their hope and to buy themselves time.
Me, I figure as each breath goes by,
I only own my mind.

Ik Denk Nooit Meer Aan Jou

Just a Dutch song that i just listened to


ik denk nooit meer aan jou

ik denk nooit meer aan jou

als ik 's ochtends wakker word
in een onbekende woning
naast een onbekende vrouw
ik denk nooit meer aan jou
als ik 's middags buiten zie
hoe een man een vrouw zijn jas geeft
voel ik plotseling de kou

ik denk nooit meer aan jou
nee ik denk nooit meer aan jou

als ik de kroeg binnenloop
waar wij vroeger altijd kwamen
denk ik nooit meer aan jou
als ik ga zitten in de hoek
waar wij samen altijd zaten
denk ik nooit meer aan jou
als ik een bier teveel bestel
m'n lege dagen tel
dan komt dat heus niet door jou
als je dat soms denkt

want ik denk nooit meer aan jou
nee ik denk nooit meer aan jou

als ik 's nachts langs jouw huis loop
en de lichten zie branden
denk ik nooit meer aan jou
langs het huis dat ik beter ken
dan m'n eigen huis
dan denk ik nooit meer aan jou
en waar ik liever wil zijn dan waar dan ook

ik denk nooit meer aan jou
als ik alleen in bed lig
vergeefs jouw hand zoek
denk ik nooit meer aan jou
nee ik denk nooit meer aan jou...

I Still Shine

Just go and read, listen and watch...

We couldn't decide on who was going to drive tonight
So I guess he felt the tension
from his side of this taxi-ride
Asking us where we're headed for
and if we were both alright
I said just drive

I... I still shine
With every passing neon sign,
I took everything inside
I still shine

I take my coat and I go where I always go
Guess that I'll pay for the ride
Right or wrong, it's the same old song
cause you never try
Shut up cause you never listen
You're selfish and conceited and
man you never compromise
Well I still shine

I... I still shine
If you'd rather be alone just take
your torments and go on
I still shine

Shine all you want but you don't taste like you used to
You can cry all you want but you don't
bring me down like you used to
You never gave me credits for the things I did for you,
I'm alright, I'm alright

I... I still shine
With every passing neon sign,
I took everything inside

I still shine

Shine (Rosemary's Sons And Ilse de Lange)

Check it here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4NP0W8cO-O8&mode=related&search=

Move Along

(For J: Hope you're gonna be fine!)

Yesterday I posted 'Hurt' from Johnny Cash. With a fucked up feeling.
But maybe it's better this way for now... Hope that 'it' will be positive in the near future. You have to give people time to make choices; yourself and the few that are close to you, for sure!!! It sucks but that's life!!! and it gives you time to think. And maybe it turns out ok! I hope ;o). In the meanwhile... I'm not gonna sit down and spent my time by doing nothing.
With Love...


Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone sins
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like
I know you do And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along

When everything is wrong, we move along Along
When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

Move Along (The All-American Rejects)

Check the song over here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FSbGur1dz9k
*check his 'save water drink beer' t-shirt ;o)

And Again...

And Again... It 'stuck' again... that's why this song... Sometimes you put yourself down and think why?? Why... don't you believe in the moment!??

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

...Everyone goes away in the end

Hurt (J. Cash)

Lust

Lust... A band... I played the drums and sang the background vocals. A great time!!!
Here some of our songs
Thanks Harrie, a big hand for him he wrote some great songs for Lust

Amber:
http://members.chello.nl/h.hendriksen7/MP3/3Lust-Amber.mp3
Funky:
http://members.chello.nl/h.hendriksen7/MP3/1Lust-Funky.mp3
Loop naar de Hel:
http://members.chello.nl/h.hendriksen7/MP3/7Lust-LoopNaarDeHel.mp3
Funky Toney meets the real rockers:
http://members.chello.nl/h.hendriksen7/MP3/WhereFunkyToneyMeetsDeEchteRockers.mp3